My dear friend,
I am writing to you in a difficult moment. My dear mother, Janelle (Mamcap was my nickname for her), went to be with The Lord last month. It is hard to write this right now, but I wanted to include you in my life. Sometimes that means moments of joy and excitement, but sometimes that means moments of pain and mourning. I refer to my life as “this mad love affair with God”, but aside from Jesus, last week I lost the one who i call “my best friend”.
My “Mamcap” had an aneurysm. It was unexpected and when we got the news I caught the first flight I could. I was in California and had to drive to Sacramento, then fly to Charlotte, then to Memphis.
The doctors kept saying she wouldn’t make it because her vitals were too bad, but I asked God to please let me be with her. My loved ones who were aware prayed with me. My son Bradflew in - we arrived that morning. My Mom was a fighter! She waited for us… I was able to get a hold of other immediate family and we were able to be with her. I got to spend precious last moments kissing her and telling her how much I love her, praying with her while Brad was reading scripture over her. We anointed her and she was released to be in her Saviors arms.
Last month I posted this:
Today at 3:47p.m my Mom went to be with The Lord. Momma- There are more memories than volumes could contain. You have always been my rock, trusted friend, wise counselor and listening ear. You are fierce, funny and free spirited! You gave me my backbone, taught me class, showed me hard work and let me always know I could do anything I set my heart and mind to. I could write you an entire book right here... For now I will simply say what you have said to me all my life, “I love you madly- you’re my sweetheart”❤️ I will miss you dearly and will see you again ❤️
The story of my mom is full of ups and downs, love and life, pain and tragedy. It had all those things that all our lives have… moments. She was a fiery pistol of passion and love. She suffered as all of us have in areas. She was a story of recovery and restoration. She was fantastic. I really am hurting right now, but as my life has always shown- there is always something greater that comes from even these times of tragedy. So in this pain there is this overwhelming peace and a sense of joy forming. God is going to do something amazing.
I smile even when I think of her passing, this is the bitter sweet part- it hurts and I already miss her more than I ever could have anticipated, but I know she is with Jesus. She was truly a story of God’s amazing goodness and restoration power. She was my best friend. She was the one I would crawl up into bed with, even when I was 50 years old. She would hold me and I could pour out my worries on her. I would laugh with her. We would bicker and debate about everything from politics to basketball (she was a die hard Grizzlies fan). But we always smiled and laughed at the end. She was a gift from God. And I cry knowing without a doubt that she came to have a truly amazing love of Jesus. And He loved her.
Even the bad times I have spoken of from my life early on, became something that God used to save thousands if not millions to Jesus Christ. But that is also what makes me smile about God. He always uses even what the enemy meant for bad- for good. No matter how something looks, nothing is impossible with God, nothing. She is evidence of that. She was amazing. God is amazing.
The place I find my refugee and strength is in The Lord. I seek His Word and I meditate on it. It is my nourishment. I just wanted to share some verses with you. Even though I am going through a mourning process in this very moment, I am joyful because our God is very real. Our savior is life even in death. And I am grateful.
Matthew 5:4, “Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.”
Romans 8:38,39, “For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[a] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
1 Thessalonians 4:13-18, “Brothers and sisters, we do not want you to be uninformed about those who sleep in death, so that you do not grieve like the rest of mankind, who have no hope. For we believe that Jesus died and rose again, and so we believe that God will bring with Jesus those who have fallen asleep in him. According to the Lord’s word, we tell you that we who are still alive, who are left until the coming of the Lord, will certainly not precede those who have fallen asleep. For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to meet the Lord in the air. And so we will be with the Lord forever. Therefore encourage one another with these words.”
Many people have reached out and asked what can they do? My response is just keep me and my family in your prayers. The fact that there are people willing to pray and intercede, to stand with me in a life dedicated to sharing Jesus with the world means more to me than anything. Even in death we win because we have eternal life in Jesus.
I love you so much and appreciate you more than you will ever know. This is a good moment, when you know that your loved one is standing beside Jesus
Christ and there is no more pain and suffering, but new life, it is a joyful time. And maybe you have something you are going through. Maybe you need some encouragement right now. Remember God’s love and power to restore, reconcile, and that one day we will once again see those we love and who love Christ. When we are saved we have life IN Christ. And there is nothing greater.
James 4:14 says, “…you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist (Your life: It is just a vapor) that appears for a little while and then vanishes.”
*If you aren't sure that if you died today, or maybe you have a loved one who needs help or doesn't know if they died today that they would go to heaven, I cannot pass up this opportunity to make sure you come to know Jesus. To be saved. Christ died on the cross for you. For your family. He rose again on the third day, conquered death, hell, and the grave to give YOU life and give it more abundantly. You have an opportunity to have eternal life with Jesus. Will you say this with me? even gather your family right now and just say this to God? PLEASE!
“Father, I come to you right now, in the name of Jesus Christ. I can't do this on my own. Today I dedicate my life to You and I accept Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior. I will never be the same. I rebuke all the works of Satan and I am done with all the ways of my past. I am walking away from my old life and into my new life in Christ. Jesus I live for you from this moment on. My identity is no longer in me and the ways of this world, but in You Lord. Holy Spirit fill me, guide me, reveal to me, and baptize me. I am Yours Lord. I receive everlasting life. And I will never be the same!”
I love you,